Vertigo on the Lake
“Anyone whose goal is 'something higher' must expect someday to suffer vertigo. What is vertigo? Fear of falling? No, vertigo is something other than fear of falling.
It is the voice of the emptiness below us which tempts and lures us, it is the desire to fall, against which, terrified, we defend ourselves.” Milan Kundera, The Unbearable Lightness of Being
What if this was the disruptive force who inspired Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart when creating and composing legendary “Serenade No.13 for strings” or driving Vincent Van Gogh to paint the extraordinary “Starry Night”?
What if this was the power that pushes us to dare in the unfamiliar lands of life, to pursue happiness and reward?
I am at the Castello del Sole, a truly relaxing oasis surrounded by a vast lush park and with the largest SPA on the Swiss border of the Lake Maggiore.
Should I choose the music background to go along with this lake atmosphere and the surrounding landscape of today, it would be a choice of piano dreams, like “Spring Snow” of Lorenzo Pescini, or “Nuvole Bianche” and also “Una Mattina” of Luigi Einaudi.
This is my mood, while I'm experiencing a wonderful energetic massage with hot oil and golden particles, in front of a misty lake view, a peaceful and introspective moment, and I hardly resist to fall in a sort of doziness. I would like this massage never come to an end. The only consolation is that some other treatments, I yet don't know which, will follow shortly.
In this kind of numbness and abandon, various thoughts cross my mind.
I reflect how life masterpieces never result from an inner calm situation, as well as excellent results can be achieved only when the soul is in a discomfort situation and therefore more sensitive to capture new stimulations. So, despite the sense of annoyance we might sometimes have to cope with, welcome to the opportunities which pull us out of our comfort zone.
I come quickly out of my comfort zone thanks to a cold shower useful to tone the body after the hot oil massage, I then take a relaxing bath in the Merlot Wine grown in the Castello vineyards and leave myself been applied a wine seeds pack, detoxing and hydrating for the skin, while I'm being wrapped inside a special soft fabric and sinked with my belly up, on a small waterbed floating upon sound waves. I definitely let myself go, and oblivion takes hold of me.
Soft thoughts arrive and go away. I like one of them in particular and try to hold it, it has something to do with the unknown.
The unknown as the breeding ground of pure creativity and soul freedom, stimulating us to enter into uncertain fields, in every moment of our existence.
Without uncertainty, life would be nothing than a stagnant repetition of old memories, while abandoning yourself a little bit like on this waterbed, and getting rid of the dependence on what one knows yet, it would then come possible to live the excitement, the adventure and the mystery, experiencing life magic and beauty.
I wake up. Now my really marvelous treatments have come to an end.
I feel brilliant, relaxed, softened, light.
I am ready to face also with my vertigo.
"Vertigo is not fear of falling, but desire to fly"
Jovanotti, Mi fido di te